i wondered today what it would feel like to be living, and then i thought that was really sad. but sometimes i do things and i don't really believe that it's my life or that i just did it... and it feels like things are inconsequential or something...like i'm sort of removed from my actual life, only half existence. idk, it's just weird. maybe it's because i've just been going through the motions of life for the last 6 months, and maybe once i'm working for a while and have my own place again i can start to feel experience again. something to look forward to!