but it's different when it's your life

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Wednesday, April 18

wow... i think this is the first time in my life i have ever felt so completely consumed by this feeling... i can't even name it. i don't know what it is. it's like, a mixture of disdain, jealousy, anger, hurt... there's definitely a little bitterness there (DON'T say a word jenn!) confusion, frustration... did i mention anger and hurt? there's a lot of that. anyways... in short, i am PISSED OFF!
she's fucking eighteen years old! good god, man, she's a child! and i guarantee that i could definitely 'take her', so umm... go ahead and tell her that shit!
FUCK i'm raging hardcore... this is stupid. i honestly don't know why i care. i mean, i kind of know why, but in the big picture you can't mean that much to me.
i can take full responsibility for the way i feel though, it's not like i'm blaming you... at least not entirely. you have to take some of the blame though, just because some of this is a direct result of your own actions, but i do accept that i control my own emotions, so it's not like i'm saying this is your fault. however, i do feel like i really want to hate you (would be nice if i could...) though since i can't, i will carry on being nice. but if you expect me to care that your roommate is being bitchy and bitter, you're gonna have to think again because i personally would have to agree with her on this.

p.s. you're an ass. ask me about it... i have no problem explaining myself to you. and i will not lie, whatever you say.