i know why i'm angry but i also know that i don't really have the right to be and it sucks because i don't want to feel like that, like i can't justify my emotions! i don't want to feel like anybody is to blame and i don't want to be choosing to blame only one person in order to keep the other... even though that is exactly what i've been doing. there is nobody to blame!!!
i think i just want somebody to talk about it with me... not just anybody though. there's only one person who i could really talk to.... i don't think it's going to happen.

and it feels like the movies when we're on the ground
and everything's not alright but somehow there's peace to be found
...
and if you should see her, at least tell her this...
'hey now, my dear, don't you know i care for you?
and if your heart hurts it's only for a lifetime...
then you rest'