would i do it again? that's the question she asks me... "if he did it again, but now, would you still stop it?" well fuck, i don't know! it probably would've been fun but there were outside factors that acted as my reasons for stopping it. "what if we took those factors away? i mean, one of them is already gone, as far as i'm concerned." well, it might be gone in your opinion but as long as i can still feel it, it's still there... sorry. AND the other will always only be half gone i think (it's a lot harder to do something that you know will hurt somebody, regardless of how often they say they "don't care", when you actually know that you're doing it). so i said 'yes, i would still stop.' i might be a liar.
"OK, so... so... sometimes i lie. i mean, i'm weird, man. about random stuff too, i don't even know why i do it. it's like... it's like a tick, i mean sometimes i hear myself say something and think, 'wow, that wasn't even remotely true'."

I WANT THIS!!!! also, i've discovered ONLINE TICKET TO RIDE! it's obviously not as fun as playing with real people but it's pretty much the same game so it's still cool... at least it'll be good for those times when everybody's being jerks and not wanting to play with me :( hahaha

and there's a lot of things that i don't want to know but you're the only face i recognize it's so damn sweet of you to look me in the eyes