HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEAL!
fun fun! ezzies was great... i mean, there were a few things i'd like to forget happening but mostly everything was awesome. ... i had to laugh at how many people were trying to get me to do this one particular thing ALL night. mostly i was laughing because if it had been anybody else i probably would've done it (and i kind of wish that i had... not gonna lie)... but i just am not capable of handling a possibly negative response. i'm the first to admit that i have a fear of rejection...at least when this person is involved... so there! ;) oh well... i still had so much fun, and i found a great little 'nook' right around the time i was starting to wind down so that was really nice *sigh* but then the winding down turned into nausea :( and i tried my damned hardest to push it away but to no avail... thus i was forced to give up my perfect spot (surrendered to a beautiful, but not so worthy, opponent... dun dun dun! hehe) and dash to the bathroom... yuck. puke is so gross.

"who are we making jealous?" "everybody"

it's funny because i didn't used to think that it would feel like this. maybe because i had never really, truly felt it before but now i think i actually am and it's weird. it just feels so normal and so special, both at the same exact time... annnnddd it sucks. ha... bet you didn't see that coming?! haha. i thought about him all day. considering how the day has been, it's pretty understandable, but still...
and i love how it doesn't matter how drunk i am, i still remember everything you say and do... especially the cute things. hehe... i'm such a nerd
anyways... i'm currently sitting in the library being completely bored, waiting for play rehearsal to be over so we can go eat...