so that was probably one of the hardest things i've ever had to work myself up for. it was just an all around tough afternoon/evening... but it worked out alright-ish in the end i guess so that's not so bad. i even kept my composure pretty well, considering that i was about ready to completely break down after "okay, so..."(but i had a back-up plan if necessary) ... this would never have even happened if it weren't for crazy people who shouldn't be allowed into society unless they've been socialized with appropriate behaviour of human contact. it just sucks!
and do you know what else sucks? i'll tell you... driving home with a dirt-smeared windshield that reflects every kind of light possible... and crying! that's right, i was crying. i couldn't help it though... i was sad. it was really just a few rolling tears and then some pooling on the eye-ledge (what is that even called? the rim? ledge sounds cool though... i'm sticking with that.) i was half-considering pulling over until i could atleast half see something but i stuck it out and made it home safe and sound!
(and then i realized i forgot something and had to go back out...)

anyways, to end on a happy note...

It's the most wonderful time of the year.
There'll be much mistletoeing
and hearts will be glowing,
when loved ones are near.
It's the most wonderful time of the year.