i had NO sleep last night... stupid guilty conscience. it's like, whenever i do something stupid my conscience decides that i don't feel bad enough and it needs to completely kick the shit out of me so i wake up tired, sad, and feeling sick, and then it says to me, "now lets see if you do that again!" it's actually a pretty sweet deal because it keeps me pretty honest and nice mostly, but at the moment it's just making me sleepy. WOW, so today was crazy. i picked up jaryd at the bus stop this morning on my way to school and he suggested that we get together for lunch while we wait to rehearse with our group today for our presentation tomorrow. we went to earls and in the middle of a forkful of my spinach salad i find out that he apparently thinks this is a date. WHAT?! so needless to say, rehearsal was a little awkward because i just kind of avoided talking to him... but walking back to my car with dane i found out that jaryd was talking about me with him on saturday so i guess he likes me or something. i wonder if i could just pretend that nothing happened, and he'll just forget about it.... hey, it could work... but really, it's not that he's not attractive (because he really is pretty good looking) and we have a lot of fun joking around together but its just that he's not good enough for me. i know that sounds super cocky but it's really not. i just can't see myself with him and i don't think it's fair to pretend that i can. ... or maybe it has a little to do with the fact that i'm hung up on somebody who i know is worth waiting for.... who knows. whatever... i know rea is getting ready to kick my ass right now but i can take it! hahah