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Thursday, November 3
i wanna shine like the stars in the heavens. oh Lord be my light and be my salvation, 'cause all i want is to be in the light
how does it even make sense to care SO much about somebody when you really don't even know them that well?! i mean, i 'feel' like i know pretty well but there are a ton of people that i know way better than him, and that i care about way less. (sorry, i can't really explain where this is coming from... it just came to me when i was walking to my car... it just hurts sometimes to care about somebody so much because you just want to be there for them but sometimes you can't because it's not what they want OR it's too hard to tell them ... ) AND i don't even know where this 'caring' came from. it's like i just woke up one day and it was there!!! agh, stupid. (wow...so i've been really sarcastic today. it's not very good. so i apologise now if you happen to have been on the receiving end of any of my sarcasm lately. i just felt like throwing that out there. i have a problem with guilt : [ ...) So i've been thinking about the 'love languages' ever since monday night, when we were discussing them with daniel (over the killer caramel apple...) and i've come to the conclusion that i am totally a 'touch' and 'quality time' person. i used to think that i was a 'gift' person but after talking about it and thinking it over a bit... AND realizing just how much i miss being hugged :( ... the realization has been made. i think it's a really interesting thing to discover about yourself, and i would recommend that everybody do it because it really helps you to self-actualize and to sit back and take a look at yourself and what you feel you need to be happy. it's cool. and just one more comment on that... some people worry that 'love language' conflicts will be detrimental to a relationship, but really all it takes is knowing yourself and being able to talk about it with your partner, or whoever, and being able to maybe 'give' something different from what you'd like to 'receive' SO HA! hehe .... stupid psych midterm tomorrow... and then... CAST PARTY!!! very excited for that. woot!