oh man...am i ever in a rut! and it is the ruttiest of ruts that ever i've been in.... hehe. it's not a bad rut, perse...but i could definitely do without it. you know when you move from the "he's so cute" stage to the "he's so cute...AND i love his 'personality' too" stage? that's my rut. i can't help it though...and i know i'm just being a "silly girl" but it's hard not to be. i'm totally one of those "heart on my sleeve" kind of people so all i really want to do is just lay everything out and then figure what to do, but i'm kind of leaning towards the "that's never going to work MORGAN! what are you thinking?!" mindset. if i could do like, telepathy or esp or whatever it is, i could send him a message from my mind right....NOW! did it work? don't think so. and then sometimes i wonder what he actually even knows anyways...i mean, besides what i know he knows for sure. ergh! (<- sound of frustration) i briefly considered trying to 'get over' him, whatever that means... and then i decided that not only is it pretty impossible at this point, i just don't want to. so she sighs and says, 'he has the most beautiful eyes'. i almost can't stand it, how my heart starts to race, when i think about him or i see his smiling face. it's so hard to stand back and let things just be, even harder knowing that he knows about me.