i am so glad i went out. i really needed to go and party...it helped get my mind off of everything that's been stressing me out. i shouldn't even be stressed anyways, i'm only 21...FRICK! it was a really fun night though...if you take away all the times i was randomly licked (eww!) and that creepy guy who just would not leave, and then drove home drunk (idiot). Okay, sorry for this but there's a "little 15yr old girl moment" coming up so you've been warned..... HE'S SO CUTE! it's not like this was the first time i noticed it, i think it's just that this is the first time i've seen him and actually 'seen him'. i don't know if that even makes sense, oh well. on the plus side, i think i'm moving on from ian which is a nice change. i still think ian is great, don't get me wrong, but i'm just really content in being his friend and who wants to ruin that with 'weird tension'? not me! but this new fella...well, he's not even my friend so there's nothing to ruin, right? haha. and now regan is probably thinking one of two things... 1."WHAT?! you DO really like him? frick, i could totally get the hook up for you!" or 2."I KNEW IT! you tried to say no but i knew it was yes...like opposite day" (because for some reason she's hooked up on this 'opposite day' phenomenon HAHAHA) so ya...that was my little high-school flashback thing. god, i'm such a frickin' dork! how do i have friends? haha. anyways, now that my personal humiliation is done with for the day i'm going to head off.