sometimes i don't want to be me...is that weird? i would like it if i could still have my life but not be myself. i just think that somebody else might be able to handle my life better than i can. i find myself struggling for control over anything because so many things are so totally out of my hands that i get frustrated sometimes and then i go all crazy inside my head. or if it was possible to even just take a break and let another person take over for awhile, just to kind of clean up and play fix-it on stuff. because, god knows i could sure use a 'fixer' every once in awhile. this sucks.