so i was just sitting here listening to some music and drawing when my cd ended and the next one that started up was nirvana...and after awhile of listening i realized that i had stopped drawing and had been just sitting there for four whole songs, listening to the music and thinking. it struck me that kurt cobain was a really truly talented musician (regardless of what my dad might say...considering that he thinks Journey is 'headbanger'. haha). writing songs like No Apologies, Heart-shaped Box, and Lake of Fire...along with so many others. the lyrics he came up with are so poetic...and it makes me wonder how somebody so brilliant and smart could be so fucked up...and it also makes me angry because i can't understand why somebody would make a choice to end their life. i know that there are sometimes chemical imbalances that interfere with thought patterns or sometimes severe depression can cause so much pain that they just want out...but my personal opinion is that it's just an escapist action, a way to not have to deal with their problems, to ignore that problems exist, and to leave everybody else to clean up after them. That sounds really insensitive...and i don't mean for it to be, i just mean that there are a lot of other ways to deal with issues, no matter how severe they are, and i don't think that there is enough attention on suicide prevention...too many people sweep it under the rug and don't face these situations head on! They can't know that help is out there if nobody tells them, you know?! ugh...it's just so frustrating. i shouldn't have gotten started on this tangent.... but now it's late and i'm tired. _______________________________________

"Now the people cry and the people moan And they look for a dry place to call their home And try to find some place to rest their bones While the angels and the devils try to make them their own"_______________