i just sort of realized something that made me feel like the hugest loser i have ever known...not good. i have no intention of saying what it is that i realized, i just felt like venting a little. so now that's over...i'm sort of feeling like this whole edmonton thing was a mistake in some ways. i mean, it's a great school and i'm glad i'm here but i'm so bored all the time...i just don't think that that could be good for my mental health. frankly, sometimes i feel like i'm going a little loopy. i have always been one who enjoys my 'alone' time but too much makes me crazy. i know, i sound all pitiful and 'feel sorry for me' but whatever...there's only a handful of people that will ever actually read this anyways. haha. hmm...also, i think that i should find a new job. i sort of like my job right now but i don't really think it's for me, and i have a hard time with some of my co-workers, which i know i should just suck it up because "that's life" but if i can get away from something annoying i will. so i don't know...it's something i'm thinking about. we'll see what happens. i AM a loser, aren't i?