i feel really uninspired right now. it's making me sad. i used to fill books with poems and thoughts and i used to write a lot but now it's like i have no imagination, and little emotion. like, i'm listening to Question Mark and it's reminding me of this poem i wrote once that was really brilliant (not really, but i was pleased with it and it said exactly what i was feeling) and now all i can think of is all that crummy surface stuff...like, what i'm supposed to feel or think and not how i actually feel. aargh! i tried to have a good talk with regan today, and it was half good, but then i just felt like i couldn't express myself...i don't know why this is even bothering me so much, i think i just have a lot filling up inside my mind and heart and i really want to get it out but i can't find the right way to do it. i bet that if i had the right person sitting next to me and i could say absolutely anything with no reserves i'd get it all out and i'd feel better...but i guess that's what prayer is for, right...