le sigh.... i am so exhausted right now that i can barely hold my head up. i know i know...you're probably thinking right now, "why dont you just go to bed morgan?" well...the reason that i'm not going to bed is because my head is still spinning and when i close my eyes i feel sick. so i'm just trying to flush out my system right now with a nice big bottle of good ol' HtwoO. crazy last night...i was just planning on staying in and chillin' with my "home boys" (sorry...long story), the whole eight of us that are still here, when chandra, aliisa, adam, and gordo decided that they were going to ezzies. so jennie, aaron, nicole and i went to dukes and played quarters. bad thing about dukes....disgusting beer. good thing...easy to get drunk really quick. before we went to dukes though, we started a little pre-drinking (not much since it was unplanned) and watched How to Deal. and then the elevator went so we all turned to see who was walking across our lounge and found that it was NATHANAEL!!! of course nobody else knew who he was because they dont know him and i'm pretty sure that he doesn't quite know who i am but we all thought he was pretty neat-o for sitting and watching our movie with us. and i was so trashed last night i dont remember half of what happened...but i hear that i kissed a random guy on the cheek and i proposed to jordan blatz. i think it was part of our game though, i wasn't just being incredibly random.
oh man, it feels so good to have ALL of my christmas shopping done...thanks to brendan, for finishing it off for me today. YAY! i'm doing a preview of the cd right now actually...just a little test, i dont want to give away crap right? no, i'm just kidding, i didn't think it'd be crap.
i was doing so good with not thinking about him very much (you know i was!!!) and then today i bought sarah a birthday card and that just made me start thinking about him...and we got in these crazy christmas frisbees today at work that reminded me of when we played frisbee golf.... MAN!!! i'm trying so hard to not be a stupid little heartbroken teenager. i am NOT heartbroken though...so i guess i'm not quite that anyways...but i'm sounding like one. i'm being stupid and obsessive. what makes people think like this anyways? i mean, why can't i just be accepting and let go, hmm? oh well...i think i'll just have to go cry myself to sleep on the couch with jono (a.k.a. harry potter)...haha.