i am so frustrated right now! and at the moment there is nothing that i can do about it and i hate it. that's right, HATE it! i'm trying to be okay with this and deal with it myself but it's hard to do. the problem is that i hate feeling used and thats exactly how i feel. aargh! if i could just shout and yell and get it all out in the open i'd be happy as a clam but i cant do that because then i would have to deal with that everyday!!!! oh well, i guess i'll have to try and figure this out for myself and hopefully soon. i dont even have anything to write anymore because all i can think about is how angry i am! oh, but the dance last night was pretty neat-o. that girls on our floor all dressed up in army/camo stuff and then we made rob our p.o.w. and shanil was the army-pimp. it was so much fun. but i'm tired and sick today so that's not quite as much fun. :(